I need to find a way to make the human form more interesting for me to learn. Animals, especially the mammalian kind, have always fascinated me, and drawing them has always been fun and for the most part easy. Drawing the human form is like pulling teeth! I don’t know what it is. I have anatomy books, tons of reference photos saved on my hard drive, but when I sit down to really study and practice drawing the form, I just go blank. My hand stiffens up. My eyes glaze over. I mean, I can draw the human form *ok*, but it just doesn’t *feel* right. It doesn’t have the substance that I see in some other artist’s galleries. I know I could be really good at it, if I can just find some way to make it more interesting for me.
Wow, you realize just how much you don’t know when you start teaching somebody. I have had somebody put all of my knowledge about film and pinhole photography to the test, and I found that I am still lacking in some areas. Not to say that is a bad thing, just that I have a lot more to learn.
My time at the library is more than half-way up. I have one coffee shop where I am going to put up some of my pictures at the end of June. I hope to find a couple more places, but my choices are fairly limited here in Huntsville. I am glad to see that there has been a fair amount of interest in my work. Most of the people who went to see my show last fall knew me, so of course, they liked my work, because I did it. Most of the people who have seen my show at the library do not know me. It touches me when my work touches other people. That makes it all worth it, even if I don’t sell anything.
Which leads me to something else. Is the artist the one who makes the art, or is the artist the viewer who interprets it? My boyfriend’s mother wanted to see my work at the library and get pictures and such, so I went with her, and while she was looking, she kept telling me the stories that she saw in the images. For example, the image with the chimney, she said that the girl could have lived in the house, but was killed when the house was destroyed, and it is her ghost in the image. That was her interpretation of the image. That was not what I had in mind when I took the image. I just thought it would make a neat image to have this chimney in the picture with no house. Sometimes I have a thought in mind when I take an image (besides the time aspect, which is always there), but a lot of times I don’t. I just go for what I think is going to make a good image, and then let people make up their own stories. So who is the artist? Also, what is art? Is it just the pretty image? Or is it the meaning, the story behind it?
This should probably go on my other blog, since it is more about art in general, rather than specifically pinhole photography. Oh well. It was supposed to be about pinhole photography.
I have graduated with a Bachelor in Studio Art. No more classes. No more people telling me what to do, or when to do it. No, I have to motivate myself. Do I want this? Yes. I have to keep telling myself this. Otherwise I will sit back and do nothing.